Gotta cope up

Well, it seems I’m back here again after how many weeks. The new schedule of my life totally kept me somehow, not somehow, but really tired, but gotta keep surviving! Lots of news or happenings have ‘happened’ already and I wasn’t able to write some of it because I haven’t had the time yet. To start off, I finally learned how to ride a bike guys! Yes, for those who don’t know yet, I just learned how to ride a bike at 20 and the thing is I’m not still very good at it. I still need to step out of the pedal to balance the thing and hopefully not fall. And if you’re thinking of the real bike thing, the bike that I used to practice with was the one that 6 years old or even younger know how to use yet (hahaha!). I’m really afraid to fall off the bike. That’s why it got me this long to learn how to.

Other thing than learning how to ride a bike, I was still in the process of getting used to with my job and learning new things, which includes not just about technical stuffs but also about all the things under the sun. I received my ever first salary, from a serious job (because I did private tutorials before), and I just don’t wanna talk. But what should I expect, just gotta look at the brighter side and if you can’t see one, look for it harder. Well, as much as I want to buy my mom a Red Ribbon cake for her 50^th birthday, I’m short of budget but I still managed to buy her a cake. As what my aunt said, “First time tam ah!”. And I was glad that they’d still appreciate my little contribution.

Aside from the AH1N1 mania, I’m busy waiting for the upcoming movies! UP, Harry Potter6 and Transformers (Revenge of the Fallen). And finally, yesterday, I got to watch Transformers. It was really hair rising, not because it was scary, but because it was so amazing. The computer graphic effects are just a ‘suntok sa buwan’ thing that I hoped I could create too. The story of the ‘fallen’ and that autobots or deceptecons (I’m not sure how it’s spelled) has long been here on earth living together with the human species. Megan Fox was really beautiful, and here I was fooled that she was really a transgender but got out off it, and Sam’s mom was really funny(haha!). Wholly, it was really entertaining just like the previous one, just more intense and really action packed and elevated cool effects.

And lastly, that I could write on this entry is about the King of Pop. I grew up adoring him, and I bet we’re all shocked hearing the news of his death. All I could say is that nothing could replace him as the only King of Pop that has really shook the world of his talent and I’m just sad that he has to die with all those intrigues he has gone through that made him a very very looked upon icon to a bad one.

my JOB

It has already been 5 days of work and the experience is still coming. I have mixed feelings about my job, my 1st job, and try to weigh the feelings I have properly to be able to arrive to a best decision. It's fun, tiring, nerve racking and educational. It is fun meeting new people in a new environment and you get to realize that you wont' have a hard time anyway to adjust since they are all so nice. My job is a veryb tiring one, and the only thing you can recover and not drag yourself to misery is to always have fun and be happy with what you have. The first time we did calls is totally scary for me. Everytime I'm going to log in to the phone to start receiving calls, it's as if I'm gonna vomit my heart out in a second. I was REALLY nervous. I dont' know what kind of call will I recieve or what kind of client will be assigned to me that's why I always pray that it must be a ghost call.(hehe). One of my calls that I can't forget is that I had an irate client and he called me 'retarded'. My gosh, that day really started perfectly. Anyway, I got to handle more calls, and I get to realized many things. You can't be really good at something unless you experience it yourself.

As a newbie, I am so pressured knowing that I still had more to learn after being a pro and I hope that I'd be able to master the things in no time. Actually, I think of my job right now as if I'm still going to school and learning new stuffs. It is true that the pay also drives you to go on with your job, but there are also lot if things aside from moey to make you love your work. I now feel that good feeling when you get to reap what you sow. I was happy that Id' get to receive my reward after the training and it was the biggest amount of money that was really my own and that I worked hard for it. Right now, I'm trying my best to perform good or even best and hopefully at the future, reach the goal that I had in mind.

Bloopers

It got me quite a longer time to have a new post for my blog, although I was online more than once the past few days, because I can’t really think of interesting to write down that has happened to me or whatever that would just popped out in my mind. Well, I’ve been busy the previous weeks continuing with my training basically. And that days including these week was totally a critical one primarily because we are near the end of the training period and judgment day is coming. So the thing that has been bugging me as well as my co-trainees is the word, PRESSURE! I was always nervous and agonizing each day knowing that there is so limited time and you’re still not that confident if you would be able to make it. Because of that too much pressure, it still remained in my sleep. One night, I was partly asleep and I was like texting while asleep and I typed in “ping router” instead of typing in the right reply. Good thing I didn’t send it because I have really fallen asleep and I just realized next day when I saw what I typed in my CP’s drafts. I was just laughing about it and that’s what really happens if you are so preoccupied over a thing. So was one of the terms we use in the training and it is somehow unavoidable to take it out of your system that easy specially when you’re always thinking about it to make yourself master the things that we should learn. Although I was amazed of myself because I was still able to spell it correctly although I was half asleep while typing it, I was totally unconscious of what I’n doing at that time. Just a while ago, when I bought pancit canton at a store near our house, I said, “Pancit canton daw, wirele…chilimansi flavor”, good thing the ‘tindera’ didn’t hear it and I was quick to say the ‘chilimansi’ word after almost saying ‘wireless’. I was not alone experiencing the same thing because one of my co-trainee was drunk and she texted “Happy mother’s day..ipconfig” to one of our co-trainee who’s already a mother and she really sent it.

We already had our two (2) ‘practical exams’ and although it was not perfect, I think it was just fine because I could still come for our last day, because we would be basically eliminated and not finish the days of training if we failed the 2^nd exam. I had another ‘stupid act’ while having our 2^nd call simulation and what makes it more stupid is that I didn’t realize I said the wrong sentence. During the call, my monitor suddenly went black or it turned idle and out of panic, I asked the pretending-as-the-customer/trainer, “is it ok if I hold you?” instead of “Is it okay if I put you on hold?” so that I could fix the monitor before proceeding with the call. I was shocked when he replied, “You want to hold me?!” like in a louder tone and I even said “Yes sir, because my monitor turned off or went idle.” It was just the next day when my trainer assessed me about the call that I realized what I said the other day was totally embarrassing and how it made me sound like a pervert. I was really embarrassed in our class when they heard about it and I can’t even look straight to my trainer. The assessment part was really fun because we get to know our bloopers and just laugh about it. Well, I really hope I could really pull this off and get hired.

To be liberated or not to be...

Less a month has passed and it was a total dread. I kept asking when and how all of these would actually end and how am I supposed to handle all of these craps until I'm finally relieved. I have been liberated for that long already and the reasons behind are not really closed yet. It means that I am agonizing the time when I would be able to make it really 'close'. A closure is what badly I need, as well as clarity and acceptance. Everything has just been so unfair and I really couldn't fathom no matter how I dig deep within my brain why I had to be in this situation knowing that I just did my part well and got a bunch of trash for an exchange. So hopeless..

Back to Ala

Thankful that tech-training will resume next week, I could go to Ala (Isulan, Sultan Kudarat) FINALLY. It is where my mom spent her childhood and it is also where the rest of her family resides. I haven’t been back there for 4 years already and the last time I was there was when my uncle, my mother’s brother, died because of high blood attack and after that a lot of reasons kept me from going there mostly because of school stuff reasons. Every time my mom would go home there, she’ll be bring me back messages from my uncles and aunts that I’d be really dead if I wouldn’t go there anymore. And now that I had the chance, I totally grabbed it.
We left at dawn and I still sleepy. We just rode a van in Matina terminal and arrived at around 8 am already. The temperature’s really really hot I could say. I can’t tell the difference here in Davao but it was really more searing in there. As we got out of the jeepney, my cousins welcomed us with a warm greeting. Boy I was really absent there for quite a time, I noticed many changes and my cousins are already grown up compared to the last time I saw them. The reason why we went home is because it’s my uncle Dodong’s birthday (the one who died 4 years ago) and fiesta. The karaoke machine starts to get really loud and I was waiting for my cousins who just live in Davao too to arrive.
There were many people and also food was abundant. I got to eat-all-I-can because my aunt has a store and they sell halo-halo and batchoy and since it’s not always everyday that I get to eat their ‘tinda’, I can just eat for free (haha). Although the temperature’s scorching hot, it was still fun and that fun would have compounded if our trip to the hot spring happened. Unfortunately it was cancelled because the night before, it rained really hard and expectedly the road to the hot spring is already accident prone.
I was really happy that I get to return there after all these years and though I have been absent for that long, I didn’t feel any unwelcome aura from them and it seems though that I was not able to go there for only just a day, nothing really beats family.

Out in the real world

After graduation, all I could think of is what course should I be taking now that I have finished my studies. I always worry that I would just end up like a potato couch and not get to give back all the hardships or efforts that my parents gave to get me this far. As what I always hear from others, I am still young and I have a long time ahead of me to actually get my dreams into actions, so worry less. Last Monday, I kinda just dragged myself to get up and try to do important things that I should be attending to like with the SITS stuff. Arriving at school, it happened that none of my classmates were there, I text Mark and he replied that I follow him to Victoria Plaza. I decided to have my new ID picture for my resumes. Then April suddenly text that they are in Concentrix for an application. She was exaggeratively telling us to hurry to go there although it's barely 1pm. We decided to go there to just to give it a shot because you can have ALLOWANCE in being a trainee. The whole application experience was totally memorable, as it was really my first time and I was really nervous as the interviewer calls my name. I'm proud to say that I was the only one who qualified for the exam and accepted to proceed to training. Knowing that it was accidental or not really planned that I apply there. The picture shows(from left) Mark, April and me, waiting in the lobby for our turn to be interviewed.

Yesterday, I get to actually experience getting your records as a grown up like NBI clearance, SSS number, tin # and all sorts that you need to comply when applying for a job. The whole NBI experience is totally hope-this-won't-happen-again thing. I was really pressured coz I just got only 1 DAY to comply all my requirements since I would be on training on Wednesday. Well, as this whole experience was happening, I have also done a lot of thinking about it. I got discouraged because my parents kinda don't want me to work in a call center plus some of the hear says that really discourages me. But I was just keep on telling myself that this is actually good, because not all can have the opportunity that I got and that this could actually be my first experience to have a job and have a good pay. Right? I promised myself that I will surely not inclining away from the field where I belong and apply the ones that I have studied for 4 years in college.

Today was my first day of training, and still, having second thoughts. But I still came because I gave my word that I would be there. I was really nervous. I felt that I had to really go to the toilet because of what I feel. But to summarize my day in the training, it was fun, I met new people or friends I could say and I also got to learn new things with regard to proper grammar and proper communication skills. On the 4th day would be our oral revalita (I don't know if this is the right spelling), that's the elimination round and getting eliminated at that phase means you can't proceed to the rest of 18 days technical training. So wish me luck guys. Come what may.